My Story | Age 16

I’ve alluded to my personal story in previous posts, but I wanted to take the next several weeks and share with you in detail the struggles, trials, and triumphs of the last 5 years! I want to take September & part of October to reflect on all God has shown me through these valleys and mountaintops.Story1

At 16, I was almost a year into my chronic headaches. I was a year into those beginning feelings of loss. Loss of health. Loss of physical ability. Loss of capability. Loss of confidence. To this day, I’m not certain whether or not I needed to feel those emotions, but I did and they hurt.

Moving from a physically-able body to a chronically-pained one proved to be a difficult process. I internalized the struggle and fought vainly to overcome it. I spent so much time in pain that I barely made room for anything else. In effect, I worshiped my pain.

 

In the summer of 2012, I worked in Leadership Live at Ironwood Christian Camp — a program for teens to learn about the ministry and apply that same knowledge to actual labor. I also grew up at this camp, but that is a story for another time.

Anyway, I worked 6 weeks with 10 other girls, crammed into a tiny room, while serving in the camp kitchen! Surprisingly, I loved it. But my pain remained deep and perplexing.

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Be a Good Steward of Good Times

Once upon a time when I was engaged, I learned something significant … but let’s back up the story to December 23, 2014.

engaged!Ben said he was going to take me to his favorite place. So on Tuesday, we walked behind his house and over the bridge. We strolled along the creek as we admired all those childhood tree-fort ruins.

We spread out a blanket and sat. Ben looked nervous, so I made light conversation, enjoying the breeze. After awhile, we walked closer to the creek and stood. Ben bounced with nervous energy. I didn’t say anything, but I could see the outline of the ring box in his jacket pocket. So, I waited.:) Continue reading “Be a Good Steward of Good Times”

Unleashing the Lioness

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”

This particular verse in Psalms (Psa.139:14) is quoted numerous times, however, I often wonder if we are grasping the full meaning of this Scripture.

Young women do you realize that you are the living sum of both fear and wonder? That statement in and of itself is powerful: fear plus wonder equals YOU.

When I think of the fear coupled with wonder my soul is automatically drawn to the lioness. The lioness is strong and sleek, the step in her stride is with profound purpose. She is simply stunning. With her paw (hand) she is capable of killing and caressing and with her roar (voice) she will seize and capture you simultaneously. She too is the embodiment of both fear and wonder.

Her beauty is often revealed in her strength, her beauty is undeniable and her power is un-disputable; her serenity is fierce. Her splendor brings exultation to her Creator; her essence makes glorious His praise.

You, young women, are fearfully and wonderfully made, indeed.

As the glorious beauty of His creation you have the power to dispel darkness at any given moment. The Holy Spirit in you far exceeds the might of any opposition you may encounter in the world according to  I John 4:4.

God is not glorified when his daughters are faint, weak, or cower in defeat. It’s like a lioness thinking it’s a grasshopper. How can her father, the King of the jungle, obtain the honor due to him when his daughter thinks she’s powerless?

We, young women, are the daughters of the Lion of Judah, created to make his praise glorious! We must take our rightful place in the kingdom of God! We are victorious, we are over comers, and we are more than conquerors through Christ Jesus our Lord and Savior.

Now is the time, unleash the lioness!

Prayer: Heavenly Father I come before you today with thanksgiving and praise. I thank you for conquering sin, death, and the grave. I thank you that you are all powerful. Forgive me for when I doubted the power that you’ve given me. Forgive me when I didn’t see myself as a lioness and daughter of the Lion of Judah. Help me to walk as your daughter, the lioness. Help me to remember the true meaning of Psalms 139:14 – I am the living sum of both fear and wonder. When opposition comes, bring this truth back to my memory. Enable me to stand victoriously in Christ Jesus. I ask these blessings in your son’s Jesus name, Amen.